Since the start of this morning, words have escaped me.
Maybe it's the sickness affecting me, but I've not been able to paint pictures in my mind, something that I've not found difficulty doing. The dreamer in me gives me direction, throwing me all sorts of ideas - wanderlust of the mind.
Much has happened since I last touched base with myself. I had started this blog for the exact purpose of charting my thoughts and emotions, but so very often I find myself lost, unable to bring to reality the many unphysical permutations of my everyday life.
But here I am, wandering and searching for the perfect place in the world - a picture of bliss and happiness so that I can put them to words for a newly-made friend.
For she is a delicate creature - strong and willful, but I look closely and I see the cracks on the surface. I'm beginning to think that mine is a great life, though lacking many, see the absence of so much of the pain and torment that many of my fellow human beings are exposed to.
That day I saw her cry, and it shattered my heart. Since then I've been trying to give her something worth smiling about, for she has the best smile, and those wonderful eyes, so often lost and vacant with the weight of her troubles.
Perhaps I can help her, perhaps she won't let me. The least I could do is try.
The world escapes me, this strange concoction of good and evil, and I am unable to write. Sorry dear friend, all I can do for now is smile.
Sleepless
On a night like this - thin air crawling its way into the room, carried around by the hot and humid twilight - I am deprived of the peace of slumber.
If in sleep we creep towards death, it would be our aspirations that save us with the ropes of hopes and dreams yet accomplished.
On this sleepless night I pay homage to the kind souls in my life who have all shown me - one way or another - that tomorrow is worth waking up for.
To the lovers I say 'love on', for life really is too short to care about what others may think. If there is one true thing in this world it would be romance - if not of the lifetime, then of the moment. Pure, simple pleasure.
To the worriers I say 'I know', for it is the presence of company that eases the pain. Whatever weighs your shoulders down, there are more ways to solve them if you would only seek companionship. Fret not about the insensitivity of mankind, but rather ask yourselves if your problem is simple enough to bear on one's own.
To the wise I say 'teach me', for I lack the patience to truly be useful to this world. They say all good things come to those who wait, and I bear testament to its prophecy; I've yet to witness much good in this world, and am all too quick to condemn it.
So in closing, I speak to the ones on my mind now -
To the ones I love, thank you.
To the ones I worry about, I am here.
And to the ones who have taught me, I have learnt.
May we all find sleep.
If in sleep we creep towards death, it would be our aspirations that save us with the ropes of hopes and dreams yet accomplished.
On this sleepless night I pay homage to the kind souls in my life who have all shown me - one way or another - that tomorrow is worth waking up for.
To the lovers I say 'love on', for life really is too short to care about what others may think. If there is one true thing in this world it would be romance - if not of the lifetime, then of the moment. Pure, simple pleasure.
To the worriers I say 'I know', for it is the presence of company that eases the pain. Whatever weighs your shoulders down, there are more ways to solve them if you would only seek companionship. Fret not about the insensitivity of mankind, but rather ask yourselves if your problem is simple enough to bear on one's own.
To the wise I say 'teach me', for I lack the patience to truly be useful to this world. They say all good things come to those who wait, and I bear testament to its prophecy; I've yet to witness much good in this world, and am all too quick to condemn it.
So in closing, I speak to the ones on my mind now -
To the ones I love, thank you.
To the ones I worry about, I am here.
And to the ones who have taught me, I have learnt.
May we all find sleep.
To know true sweetness
"I think of you every day. You are in my thoughts when I'm walking home, when I go to sleep and even when I'm brushing my teeth."
I'm glad to be able to hear these from someone, and hope that it all works out fine in the end.
I'm glad to be able to hear these from someone, and hope that it all works out fine in the end.
Atom
There is an ant crawling about my laptop screen.
I thought i picked it up and released it into the dustbin earlier, but it seems to have made its way back.
Goes to show what you can accomplish if you don't give up.
Go Ant!
I thought i picked it up and released it into the dustbin earlier, but it seems to have made its way back.
Goes to show what you can accomplish if you don't give up.
Go Ant!
